Falling in Love

I had a great weekend! On Saturday, I spent the whole day (8am-6pm) volunteering for Unity Utah (a gay and lesbian PAC). Adam Bass and I manned the booth for the KRCL Day in the Park. We just sat there asking people if they had registered to vote, if they were committed to equal rights for all, and if they would sign up for us to send a postcard to their elected officials on their behalf telling them that they were committed to equal rights for all. We actually had a lot of straight people sign up. There was an LDS man who came to our booth and told us that he was for gay/lesbian rights. He told us that he had good friends who had changed from men to women and they were so much happier because of it. He also told us that the "gospel" is somewhere and the church is not at that place yet. Someday, he hopes, the gospel and church will mean the same thing. This coming from an active high priest. =)

Afterwards, I went with Adam to see Kevin Allred play at the Center (Kevin is a musician). Frog, Martin, and Brian came and the 4 of us went to Dee's to eat. Adam didn't come with us.

Following dinner, we all stood in the parking lot of Dee's and discussed gay politics. Martin had left, and Brian wasn't talking, so it really was a debate between Frog and me. Although he's gay, he doesn't believe that gay people should be allowed to marry right now because we haven't "proved" that we will be responsible with marriage. He was also against the latest ruling by the Supreme Court regarding the right to privacy. Frog is very conservative to lots of issues, but he's really right-wing on gay politics. I think it's rather sad actually. If he'd have been black in the 1960's, he'd probably be against the Civil Right's movement. I still like Frog though. I can disagree with a person and still like them.

I got mad at Brian though. He didn't do anything, and that was the problem. I can be friends with a person who I disagree with politically (like Frog), but I couldn't date a person like Frog. It was weird listening to Frog because many, many times, Brian's mannerisms would come out. It was disturbing to watch someone I disagree with fundamentally on many issues acting like Brian. It scared me to the point that I thought that Brian might turn into Frog someday, so I shouldn't date him any longer. I was really mad and went home to take a drink of my raspberry Schnaps. I drank a lot because I didn't want to think of Brian or politics or anything of the sort. Then I just got more angry with myself and Brian (though he didn't do anything). I called Brian at 2am because we had to talk. I drove over to his house about 3am and slept there. He was really angry that I had some alcohol and was also mad that I didn't talk to him when I was mad at him.

The next day (Sunday), Brian had work in the morning. I stayed in his bed and slept until 12pm. I woke up and cleaned his apartment until about 4pm. I bought 3 yellow flowers and 3 roses. In his apartment, I put up post-it notes with adjectives about him, like classy, sexy, honest, etc. I put up about 80 post-its. Then I left the yellow flowers in a trail to the bedroom. I had about 5 notes on the same path saying things like, "These (the yellow flowers) are the kind I give to a person who I really really like, the kind that I give to someone that has made me a better person, the kind that let someone know that I don't know how to live without them in the future, or how I got along without them in the past." Then, on his bed, I had a picture of us in a frame, the roses, and a note that said, "But these are the kind of flowers I give to Brian Jay Nicholls, letting him know that I love him, because there's no other word in any language that describes how I feel about you." Yeah, I said I loved him. I really do. I put on a CD of Pachabel so when he walked in he would be listening to that.

After I knocked on his door, he opened it and he was crying. We embraced and stood there for a long time. I told him that dating him has been like a romantic movie. We hadn't reached the climax yet, and I told him that that was yesterday. "I want to start living happily ever after now." I could tell that he liked that.

We went to PF Changs for dinner, then watched the Animatrix and went to bed afterwards. =) It was a really nice day with a nice ending.