Trouble at Intel
I just got in trouble at work. My boss Jessica called me into her office and there sat 2 other managers who chewed me out. Although I sit on the phones all day waiting for people to call me, Intel is having their bi-annual Intel Channel Conference and we're supposed to call every member of our Product Dealer Program. We are each assigned a city to call (I have San Jose) to register our members for the conference. We are required to make at least 50 a day.
Well, I haven't been making my calls. Last week, I think I made 2-3 calls each day and my bosses have been getting mad. We have about 20 people on our account and I'm 3rd from the last in irresponsibility. I told my boss Jessica that I totally understand where they were coming from and would start making my dials. She was really nice and offered to drop the number of required calls to 40 (since I don't work full shifts, only 4 hour and 6 hour shifts), but I told her no. There's a guy who is only here for 2 hours a day and he makes about 40 calls in that time. I was glad that she said "At least Jesse knows when he's doing something wrong" to the other managers in the office. I do know when I'm not doing the job I'm getting paid for and there hasn't been a good excuse for me not to make my calls.
I've been under the weather the last couple.....months. I wish I could say days, even weeks, but it isn't the case. I don't know how to describe it other than feeling depressed about life and not caring about anything of import. I feel like I just want to stop doing everything and do nothing. I feel alone, dark, sick, and overwhelmed. I usually just want to go home , lie in my bed and sleep. I've been having a hard time getting out of bed the last 2 months, skipping class more than I have in the past, and not caring about important things I should. I come to work and want to be lackadaisical. I know when things aren't right with me when I can't just smile and feel an overwhelming joy about life in general. I don't like being sad.
4 Comments:
The living of life is hard. Trying to "save" a relationship from going under takes alot of courage. Growing UP is a bitch ... accepting responsibility for your words and actions takes courage.
If you're not performing 100% peak performance in any area, that tells me that maybe you should find out why and if you can, then make a change and make things better.
Depression in OVER RATED!! Staying OUT of the proverbial "Pit of Hell" takes alot of work.
Now, the writing is on the wall - you did not meet your quota, and you know well why! Now, what are you going to offload to make your life a bit easier to cope with?
I wonder IF you are holding on to too much CRAP ??? We are not superman, if I am keeping it real.
You have been under the weather for several reasons and for a long while. And If you keep doing this to yourself you WILL DEFINITELY hit bottom and then ask WHY ME??
So lets cut to the chase....
Make a decision, stick to that decision and start flying right. offload the crap and luggage that is holding you down from flight.
They never promised us a rose garden. And they never told us that life would get easier the older we got. Growing up take ALOT of work.
If you are not happy with your job and you sure are "underperforming" then maybe you need to consider whether or not you want to stay in this kind of job or go do something that will showcase your real talents.
Wasted Time is Wasted Time.
Time is a precious commodity once wasted it can never be regained.
Now let me ask you Something...
How much more time are you going to wasted being upset, depressed and unmotivated???
Now that we know what the problems are you can start fixing them.
Sometimes we need a good kick in the ass to get started on the living of life.
You are too young and beautiful to fall apart and fail. Now get up young man and accept your calling to be successful.
Peace,
Jeremy
:( well i'm just gonna tell you what i tell everyone else when they say something like this. try seeing a counselor!
i only suggest it because it worked for me so much better than i ever thought it could.
my mom had a really good way of reasoning it. "when your eyesight gets bad, you see an eye doctor. when you have a cavitity you see the dentist. when you need some help with your mind, you see a counselor."
seriously, if i hadn't seen a counselor in nyc, i doubt i would have ever been okay with making my decision to go home. and once i did get home, i decided to see one to really put all my feelings about it to rest.
i think it's best if you just go with the intention of seeing them only 4-6 times. then you really let yourself really decide the most serious issues you want to discuss. if you don't like the first, or 2nd person you see, then see another--just like you would any other doctor.
i know i'm a much happier, more secure and confident person b/c of my experience with them.
i know what you're feeling, i really really do. i felt it so many days in nyc, i've felt it so many times in my past. i know that if you feel it for too long, it almost gets comfortable. but don't let yourself get settled in, because i know that's not what jesse nix really wants.
i wish i had told you all this over the phone. oh well. call me.
You know, you could solve this by, oh I don't know, talking to those of us who really care about you and worry about you. Just an idea...
I second what Megan said.
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